Not Ready

I feel like the world is moving on without me. I sit in studio and know that next year only two other girls are still going to be here next year. At home I know that next year I won’t have roommates who I’m comfortable living with and who know my quirks. I’m sure that that is why I’ve been having flare-ups lately. I’m trying so hard to hold on to this year that I’m not putting energy into progressing my studies. I look forward to my future years of school. I’m just terrified of losing those around me who I have come to love over the years. Of course I know I’m not losing them for good, but they won’t be a part of my daily life anymore. That scares me.